Tyra Banks

  I am not a big fan of idols such as Korean celebrities or Lady Gaga.. and more.. The reason is because I am only interested in the songs, not the people who sing the songs. However, the only person I really like is Tyra Banks. She has been my role model since I was fifteen. I almost watched every shows of Tyra Banks and America's Next Top Model.

  She is a very proud African-American woman who is always confident and strong in anything she does. In every shows I watched, I have never seen her saying anybody is ugly. She especially tries to give high self esteem to women who are not happy about their body images or appearances. I would say that I also gained a little bit of confidence by watching her show.

  She is never afraid of trying new things on her because she has confidence in what she does. It is really hard to find similarities between celebrities and just normal people, but for Tyra, it seems that every girls are related on what she thinks. I feel that Tyra is really open minded and she is honest about herself. She has same problems of what other women have and she gives adivice to those who need help.

  She has helped the people who were rejected from the society because they are unpleasant looking, faced racism, unpopular, and other more. She could help them because herself is a strong woman who has gone through all those pains. I really really hope I could meet her even for once in the fashion industry because she is my role model! I know I can't be tall like her, but I could learn something from her :D

Aging and Aging..

   I know most people find it hard to believe, that I'm twenty years old in Korean age and eighteen in American age. It's because I'm small but, I am almost not a teenager. When I was seventeen or eighteen in Korean age, I wanted to be twenty years old really quick because I felt like I would have rights to do anything I want. :)  Guess what, I am twenty but I don't really feel free. Maybe because I'm still in school. Lol. If I graduate I will probably feel the freedom and fly like a bird.

  I feel like I am aging really fast because by next year, I will be twenty one... and then after ten years, I will be fricking thirty!!! I will be almost an AJUMMA. By then, I would probably get married....or not. :)
I'm kind of afraid to face the society by myself without any support but, at the same time, I'm really excited. I like trying new things and I love challenges even though I am not that confident.

  I keep imagining myself of ten years later because I wouldn't have the fresh face I have now.. and I'm already feeling that my face is becoming older...and older.... I really hope I could live in my age now forever..!! But I just get older and one day I will become an old, old mother..

 

Teachers in SPPS

In my old school, it was always hard to see teachers personally because the school was really big. I never really got to talk them but in classes only. It was really hard to know what teachers were like because they were like the professors. Plus, I was a really shy girl in the middle school and I was also afraid to talk to them:)

What I realized when I came to SPPS was that teachers are humans. I know this sounds really stupid but I really felt that way. since this school is much small, it is easy to get to know the teachers here. I have talked to many of the teachers here inside and outside of the school and they are very understanding and open minded. Many students think of a teacher as..... teacher. I don't really know how to explain this but I thought teachers were just teachers. I never imagined the "human side" of them. Lol.

Teachers here are really nice and friendly. I really think they really try hard to improve the school and the students. It is probably the toughest part for teachers to teach  foreign students when English is their second language. I see their efforts trying to explain each students hard vocabularies.

Anway, I will probably miss the teachers a lot when I graduate!!!!!

                                                And other teachers :D

Are you happy?

   I know you have seen this question before in a book :)  I want to share my part of  life in this blog.
I have heard this question many times mostly from my friends. Many of them ask me this question because I don't live with my parents and haven't before for several years. Not because I don't like them, but because I always studied abroad:) Many of them are curious of my life abroad and ask  me if it wasn't hard living in other countries without parents.

  I would usually answer that it was fine but truly, it wasn't. It was a very difficult times living in other house without parents because I always had to seek for love and especially if the people in the house treated me very badly. Anway, at that time, if I had to answer if I was happy, I would definately say that my life is like hell.

  As I grew up, of course it is still really hard to forget the pain I had in the past, but I would answer that I am the most happiest person :) I know I don't look like though lol. I realized that all those pain I had actually made me to become a stronger person. It is very easy for me to take critism from people even though they hurt sometimes because many people had criticized me when living without my parents. I always had to stand by myself because there were no older people to help me.

  Today, I know how to deal with defending myself and people much better. Since I became a religious person, I learned to be positive even when people made me angry. Although some people still criticize me, I would still love them and this is what makes my life happier. I don't need to hate people which will make my life negative. I am a really happy person because my religion has changed me find love which I am really thankful of. Whenever I face difficult situations, I suck it up, and then pray which makes my worries get away.

  Also, it is almost vacation and I am damn happy to attend college!!!! :D

Want to know make-up secret?

  
   Cosmetics are almost all girls' life, I would say. Without them, it is impossible for some girls to go outside. Make--up has become the most important part in fashion because  it makes all outfits look high fashion, punky, stylish, or any other styles. Without make-up, it will be boring to look at outfits in magazine and even in the streets. Currently, many make-up artists find many ways to apply make-up for models or celebrities to make them look even more beatiful. Certain ways of putting make-up also becomes a trend which most peple could follow the similar style. If Britney puts  her make-up in a very beautiful, and unique way, many people would follow.

   First, I would like to introduce this modern style of make-up.
 
This style is for the natural look which you can tell that there aren't much makeup on her. What she did was that she put foundation, orange blush, mascara, and glossy lipgloss. These are pretty very basic which most women do this style for daily makeup.



This style is a party look and you can tell that this is different from the top one. This one basically takes a lot of time to do, I guess almost forty minutes. No one would look attractive in parties if they did natural makeup. To be unique, and hot, women focus on their eyes to look bigger and sharper. This woman basically put black eyeliner, white eyeliner, mascara, and multiple colors of eye shadow. Every women looks hot with this party style!



This style is a punky style which emo women do this a lot. This is basically really easy to do. All you need is an eyeliner, and mascara which makes it look like a panda.:)  I personally don't really like this look because I just think is scary to wear it on daily lives. However, in a fashion magazine, I would love it. All you have to do for this makeup is apply eyeliner all over your eyes really thick.

 I really love to do makeup for people and I am confident that I can change women's look with it. Anyway, which style do you prefer the most?:)

Angel collection :)

  I really thank God that he has given me an opportunity to have a collection before I go to college! I was introduced to some of designers in Korea and they saw my portfolios and potential. Then they told me that I could work in an angel collection they are doing by the end of May. I have never made any clothes before but sketched and designed so I didn't know if I could fit in there.
 
  However, they told me that they would teach me how to make dresses and I was really happy. There are other many people working together but I'm the only youngest one.

  The goal was to make angel dresses and show them on a fashion show. This sounds very exciting but at the same time, it could be a hard thing to do because all of us have different opinions about the designs. However, we all worked so well because the leader had very good leadership and all our opinions became one. They gave me a huge opportunity to sketch the dresses and color them of what they say.

  I had to list all their ideas and draw them quickly as possible. I was really excited but at the same time, I had to worry about school works too.

The dresses are very simple and are bright colors.

I haven't finished yet but we have started making the clothes:) They will be finished by late May and I can't wait until the fashion show!!!!

My worst night mare..

  It was Friday night and I had the worst night mare ever in my life....

  It was in the midnight 3AM and I was still riding in a subway. There was no one except a scary looking guy and myself. I had to go to Yangjae station to school very early in the midnight because the school started very early that day. Looking around wondering why the subway did not stop, even once, I saw the man infront of me. He was in a sleep but I felt really scared because he looked really scary and ugly. I couldn't even tell what race he was. One hour passed but the subway didn't stop. I started worrying that I will be late in to the school.

  Suddenly, I felt the subway was going really fast and faster and I realized something was wrong. I thought I had to wake the man up and I looked front. 'AAAHHHHHH!!!!' I screamed so hard because his skin was turning red and was full of huge dirty acnes. I started running away from him but he started following me like a zombie. I mean, he was a zombie. He held a huge sharp knife and followed with his weird sound. I ran and ran really hoping that the subway could stop.

  I realized that I was dreaming but I couldn't wake up. I continued running until I reached the end. Oh crap, I saw the most horrible thing in my life. I saw human's meat hanging like pigs and the blood was all over the floor. I heard the zombie coming near me and my heart beat really fast thinking I am dead. The zombie came really near me and started cutting my thigh. I screamed sooo loud and I woke up from the dream. I immediately saw my thigh but nothing happened. I was sweating all over my body and the scariest thing was that it was midnight 3 AM............... yeah.... I was so scared that I slept again holding my pillow really tight

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My plans for the summer vacation!

  The very very first thing that I will do for the summer vacation is SHOPPING!!!!!! I have not been shopping for soooo long and I'm really really frustrated... I seriously need to go shopping before I go to America. But I think Iwill still go shopping a lot when I'm in New York. :)

  Since I'm eighteen in An American age., I can find a job to earn some money. I have never had any jobs before when many of my friends have. I also want to experience a new life by having a part time job during the summer. I want to teach little students english because that's what I really want to do. Although I'm not a fan of kids, but I would love to teach them from alphabet A to Z :) lol

 

  I have also planned to meet my best friend who is coming from North Carolina. I want to hear how life is like for her in USA which I'm really interested in. I will travel with her in many places in Korea and have fun!!!

  One last thing, On August 20th, I will finally go to New York, Manhattan and arrive at the university dormetry.  I'm really excited because everything will be new to me and I really love new feelings :) It will definately be an awesome experience for me in US and I can't wait to design clothes!!

 

High school...

  I am truly tired of going to school these days.. There are sooo many reasons to explain why. I have been in SPPA since I was in 10th grade, nearly three years. The first year was exciting because everything was new. The second year, it was ok.. The third year, I started to get bored of the school..

  I really thought it would be exciting to be a senior because many seniors used to tell me that when I was in junior. However, after being a senior, there was nothing actually new. Since this school is really small, there aren't many people. This is one of the reason I am really frustrated.. In my old school, there were lots of students which was so much fun. I would never get bored talking because there were always new students. I just hoped that there could be more students and new activities.

  I don't know if it's only me but I feel like I became much much more lazy this semester because I don't have many classes and I just feel like graduating the school tomorrow. To be honest, I just want to have the summer vacation right now!! I want to travel so many places and study what I am interested in. I also want to have a part time job before I go to USA.

  I expect that this school will become much bigger after few years and it might probably get even better.,,,but, I'm graduating anyway..

  However, I really like teachers here because they are all nice and friendly. :)

Is being an obese something to be proud of or shamed of?

   Most women are always concerned about their weight because they want to be slim or normal size. However, I was really shoked to hear that there are very few women who wants to weight like obese. It was my first time to hear somebody wanting to be 1000pounds.. I mean, I would understand if a really skinny person want to gain weight.

  I know all women and men should be proud of how they look, but the question is, is being too overweight considered beautiful?. In the Tyra Banks Show below, the lady who's overweight says that she eats nearly 2000calories for her breakfast. She says that she hates to even move which one can tell because it takes so long time for her to go to the mail box. When she cooks, she has to sit in a chair and use a tong for cooking. Although she was proud of herself and she even wanted to gain more weight, I actually felt really pity for her. Not because of her appearance, but her health. It could be really dangerous for her to be sick such as heart attack... and so on.. I think she's not really knowing how difficult her future would be if she gains even more to 1000 pounds. She might just have to stay in bed.

   I also questioned myself about the lady's boyfriend. "Does he love her fat, or her personality?". He says that he likes really fat women like his girlfriend. I'm thinking if he really loves her, he would probably take care of the girlfriend's health. Would he try to break with her if she loses her weight?

  Anyway, I just.. really really hope that she could find some ways to keep herself healthy. This doesn't mean that she goes skinny. It means that maybe she could excersise at least fifteen minutes a day. I'm sure she will get way healthier.